Courting Genies

Courting Genies

Wasting time

Feeling like a prisoner

Going out of my mind

 

No good to be a stranger

No time to be a friend

Patience fleeing swiftly

No love to defend

 

Streets swallow me whole

Gravity leads the way

Down to my empty soul

On my knees I pray

 

Rooms are wasted space

Lonely, sitting all alone

I contemplate the waste

My wishes are all gone

 

Disappearing as smoke

Thinking leaves me crazy

Sad thoughts do provoke

Dreams are too hazy

 

My life in ruins now

Love has disowned me

No friends in this town

Living life, but not freely

I feel

I’m at that point where I begin to obsess again,

and I feel the fear of myself to tear everything down to the ground.

I don’t want to self-destruct this way again.

Not again. Oh worra, worra, worra.

My love, she is there for me somewhere,

I’m sure. I think I’m sure, I guess.

Lovely, lovely, lovely, she gets me so crazy.

I love her so much; I want her every single day.

It’s all in the air and not,

and I wrestle with my own mind all the time to stop freaking out!!!

But, I can’t, oh, I can’t.

I feel good sometimes when I don’t think about it.

I think.

I feel alive sometimes too, but what is that?

Alive, alive, alive, no more to be afraid, no more to be dismal and bleak,

I want that life, that life of love and family feel.

That intimate partnership of soul.

No more death, no more hurting to feel pain and always going insane.

Born of this World

Born of love into this world, born of love

My life, always to understand, no problem, I understand

Time is not mine, time belongs not with me

Absorbing understanding for all things too

Feeling, feeling, always feelings to keep hid from sight

Boiling in my heart, feelings to cry for my space in time

Nothing lending itself to me for feeling

No expression too stifling, too cold and imprisoning

Deafening the silent mind singing without words, without chords

Energy of sorrow reaching beyond me, beyond this world too

I’m still, but running, running, running over every moment in time in my mind

To find the mysterious truth of why, why here to sing these songs?

Why for morrow, why for loss of soul to truth to find feeling?

In my mind, I understand, feeling, I understand time, and know not why

 

In Amber

Thick golden amber, the fascination drawing me in

Toward the center of old life renewed and the view from an inner voice

Ancient is the way toward freedom and liberty taking one’s mind into decay

Resting on the ground, under ancient trees amber resides its occupants still in time

 

Depleted and frozen still in moments, me too afraid to move

Not one thing to say or do, push out off of mortar away from battles elude

Moments too real for breaking time alone must exhume fires in starlight

Run through thinking too much to weep for sorrow complete the feast

 

Fast as you can be you are not so slow thick amber coats your clothes

Fight and die kiss then cry, flying, falling, crying, and calling

Work it out backwards first to find home, naked walking all alone

Residence to please for house monsters meat and keeping warm with oceans blood

 

Wild horses in the crashing waves rearing heads with steaming breathe

Saints rush off cliffs prayers and symbols near their chests

Howling wind and ancient screams take the scent of death away

Carved to find beauty of mind through lost time in amber

Days of Wine

Awoke a punk to steal the street away from them

Older folks that kept me high

I never asked much of them

Pass that joint, I’ll fucking grin

High, high, high, high; why?????

Happy too no more to die

 

I roamed around and found my skin

In time I’d wake up again

Starving too with skinny blues

Loves not here nor there but fuck!!!!

I’ll go to bed with every girl.

Free from pain once again

 

Too much talking on my time

I’ll take that one and make her mine

Never again to be unfine

She was such a whore

Screwed everyone she ever knew

Told me it was my fault too

 

Gone again, not innocent

Wandering the whole world

To see if there is clarity

No one answers anymore

Love Gone and passions’ bruised

Sane, sober, nearer to death

Saints, sages, wicked fables

These days of wine

 

 

Stop Violent Abuse

People tired of waiting for freedom to ring

Or the powers that be to let their hearts sing

Time to stand strongly together and in unity band

No more taking abuse at their will or command

 

When injustice and cruelty pave the way

We can turn our heads and just walk away

Brutal cowardly officers enrage

Beat us up and throw us in a cage

 

Time to stop all this violent abuse

Upholding the “law” can’t be an excuse

They tell us all they’re doing their jobs

Crowds of people turn into mobs

 

Down on the ground they have you subdued

Beating on you with sticks in this feud

Time to take it all back for our rights

Suffering at hands that suffer the same plights

 

They can’t do this because of that badge

If they’re not careful, they’ll be pushed off a ledge

Not on the ground just like all of us

Bleeding and crying their hope turning to dust

 

That’s the time when they see that they’re wrong

To be an overseer of the public, arms must be long

To push people down is not so very brave

To hurt others further must mean they themselves are enslaved

Death on the Way

Death on the way

You think it’s safe to play

In your tracks your body does sway

Pretending you won’t pay

 

Take it on in your life

Perilous foreboding strife

Reduced by the knife

Notes on the fife

 

Run for the hills

You can’t pay your bills

You’re one of your enemy’s kills

Bones run through mills

 

Red running down stream

You wish it was a dream

Corpse hung up across a beam

Life in the end is not what it would seem

 

You were caught in the rain

Time to pay it out in pain

Hope gone down the drain

Time you cannot re-gain

 

They won’t hear your cries

Soul leaves you as your body dies

Rotting you attract flies

End of all your old ties

Not Alone, Not Together

All my life there has been always me to turn to, always by myself, alone.

No matter what ever happens always me to find my own way home.

Now, I know you, and for the first time in my life, I know I’m not alone.

I feel something in my heart to be true; I need you to carry on.

You are yourself, so much like me, your path just different, geographically.

Distance can disappear in a matter of hours, to allow nothing to stand between us.

And our minds and hearts can become one.

This does not seem to be what will happen immediately, but it will after time definitely.

No matter, we must take care of duty and no one will take that part of life away from either one.

Both of us, on our own path, not together and not alone, but we are together alone.

Helena Reclining Goddess

Reclining goddess
I see you all in white
Night time commands you
Taken back moon light

Weak wills approach you
Solace born to serve
Time honors itself unkind
Love emanates your curves

Those who dare to ask
Must prove worthiness fast
Slender beauty, unspoken words
Reflective of your past

Fault finds cheap reasons why
No one cares, grief sighs
Found on satin sheets cold
Unencumbered by their cries

Longing for a touch or glance
All around envy your grace
Goddess as a woman
No one can take your place

Life Left Hurt

Life so hard, feeling hard to find, pain the way of life today

 

Strike them with both hands; they’re blind, running behind in dark hell

 

Cast them out of the inner circle, they’ll be left wandering lost, life can be a mystery

 

Rain from the heavens, if only it would rain, choking out the devil through drought causes pain

 

Lonesome sorrow, solitary witness, life’s injustice on the face of man because of indifference

 

Bleeding hearts want action of mind, but won’t face the truth, too fine

 

Daunting tasks to perform, decisions for every incident a waste, want more?

 

Caskets fill up faster, death is the life force chaser; squash the soul out, bastard!

 

Fleeing feet find no benefit of the vacant street, weaving through the awesome agony, defeat

 

Life blown apart at every seam, torn from the world by war and dangerous deeds

 

Dying, you drag yourself out of the house to find foolish fiends robbing bodies, no homage

 

All victims of a whim, foolish folly with lies and grins, space to navigate and defend

 

Children run through towns, in gangs, armed with guns, killers created out of rage

 

Soul sucker politicians mesmerize the sheepish crowds, telling of enemy intruders

 

Dead upon dead, lie upon lie, stop the insanity, nowhere to hide, calamity!!

 

I’m still standing!!!! Is that all you got Mother Fucker? Is that all you got?

 

Big giant huge foot upon the head of the small weak willed and whining kill

 

Slave to the grave, incomplete grade, silence lead you to doom, in darkened musty rooms

 

Greed turns to lust, insatiable hunger that must, eat appetites of the crushed

 

Too much hurt to take the pain, grinding us all down, the souls drained

Blow Ya Mind, Lock n Load